Tuesday, May 10, 2011

My Beloved Mother



I just put the phone down...while talking to her, my tears start running down my face quietly...trying to keep my voice steady so she won't know I'm crying...I can't tell her how painful it is not seeing her as often as I want to...I can't tell her that my circumstances are such that it's impossible to make the trip...I miss her so much...she is here now, but don't know how much longer she'll be here...time is cruel and not on my side...being here in a far away land and just hearing the news of loved ones leaving one by one has left untreated scars on my soul...it's hard to believe that they're gone forever...as for my beloved mother, can't let her know of my pain...try to sound happy for her but inside I'm bleeding with pain......every time we say I love you, I try to memorize what she said...how she said it...is it going to be the last phone call...